Well how things can alter in just one week. So much has shifted after my last post where I was still filled with a little optimism. I wrote my words a week gone Wednesday, before the schools closed, along with bars, restaurants and theatres, then after a very strange weekend the lock-down finally came. My thoughts and words from last week still remain true but I must admit I have struggled at times over the last couple of days. Some thoughts and worries seem so trivial for me to be even contemplating but still pop into my head. Others are of complete anger at the actions of some people.
Home life and our new routine is now taking shape, we are adjusting to the new normal. I’m very lucky that my day hasn’t changed that much. My work has taken a bit of a back seat but that is a decision I am lucky to able to make. My husband works from home already and continues to do so. One of the loveliest things about our new routine is having Ruby at home, the morning alarm clock has been switched off, we are waking naturally with the sun coming through the curtains which is rather lovely. Everything has slowed down but we are managing to get everything done and more as we have no time constraints. Ruby is managing her school work like a pro, we are getting our daily exercise, walking every day, being outside is good. I’ve even started a mini workout in the living room with Davina, something I’d never thought I’d see me do. I am missing swimming enormously – being in the water, just me and my thoughts gently pushing and stretching my body, I am missing my swim buddies too and the daily laughter. Then again doing moves I haven’t done in about 20 years made Ruby and I have fits of giggles yesterday morning!
The things I have struggled with are the changing information we are being given on a daily basis. I was rather reluctant to go to the supermarket for my weekly shop yesterday, I felt quite scared. There were a few measures put in place but not what I would have expected and still too many people not distancing themselves. There was still a shortage of basics. I haven’t been able to get pasta, rice, flour, yeast, tinned tomatoes and precious paracetamol for 3 weeks now. We are very lucky that our local farm shop is adapting and running a call and collect system so I can still get supplies from them. Even our veg box deliveries are being scaled back due to high demand from new customers. One thing I thought we wouldn’t have a problem with was our toilet roll but it seems even Who Gives a Crap are struggling to fulfil orders. The thing that is most annoying to me about all of these situations is that there is no need for any of this to be happening. Selfishness, greed and fear have raised their ugly heads and they are the cause of the shortages. I have also witnessed my neighbours flouting the advice to keep us safe; having visitors and family gatherings, cars going in and out in and out for small journeys. Unnecessary travel and infrequent shopping seems to mean something else!
There aresilly trivial things that have bothered me to the point of feeling very guilty for thinking them: when will I ever get my haircut again, I’m going to resemble Albert Einstein in a few weeks; how can I make my garden beautiful if I can’t get bags of compost (I’m running low). Yes all very ridiculous and narcissistic in the grand scheme of things. Also my hands are falling off from washing them constantly but I do have a very large selection of hand creams that should see me through hopefully or I may have to resort to raiding the butter dish!
So to end on a happier note to this very random post, everything else aside Spring is here, my daily rituals of noticing the lovelier things in life are still taking place. Watching big bees and butterflies fly around my garden, listening to the blackbirds song makes my heart soar, staying at home is a pleasure and one that I cherish.
How are you all coping, feeling a little like me or being more up beat. Tell me some of your stories, your ups and downs and the things that are bringing joy.