I know I usually write about interiors or lifestyle tid-bits but sometimes things happen that you have no control over, you need to take time to mull things over and possibly write about it like I am today, so excuse me if you are wanting beautiful interior images or tips to help improve your every day. I am so very lucky to be able to do what I do, I can pick and choose and take time off when its needed, the Summer holidays are nearly upon us and I am definitely downing tools for quite a lot of it. To fully be in the moment with my family and not thinking about how I’m going to Instagram this and that or trying to pursue content for blog posts. Sometimes its just ok to slow things down and deal with the immediate and that’s exactly what I am going to try and not feel anxious about it.
For the last few months I have been living in a stressful state due to a medical issue and its taken a lot out of me mentally, so I’ve found it rather hard being present and engaged on social media. The inspiration and joy just hasn’t been there. Trying to condition my brain to not worry about a diagnosis I’ve struggled with enormously, I have jumped to many scenarios but haven’t been able to find a path to talking about my predicament, obviously family and friends have been amazing but nothing professionally. I think the word Cancer scares most people and that word has been at the fore front of my mind all these weeks but because I haven’t had this diagnosis there doesn’t seem to be anywhere to go or speak to to put your mind at ease a little.
I am terrible for making mountains out of mole hills, I am a born worrier so anything like this I find exceedingly hard to cope with, my current situation is ok (hopefully), I have my next appointment in September so I shouldn’t still be scared but I’m still finding it difficult to put it all completely out of my mind. I am however going to take time away to focus my attention on everything around me and be with my family who are so very precious. We are going away next week in our little caravan Agatha for 3 weeks, days that are very much needed to take care of myself and let the stresses of the last couple of months fade. To be able to reset and deal with my emotions by letting my surroundings sooth my soul.
So this may be my last post for a few weeks, I shall see how things go. Thank you all for understanding it means the world.